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  Owh~ Fai’s sister’s bf opened a spec shop edi lor~ erm.. actually this is not wat i wan to say.. haha.. i m here to writ a blog juz to let u all noe the new look of Zhen Fai and Jennie.. of course lar.. b4 posting their photos i edi askes for their permission.. haha..

Their new look with spec..

This zhen fai with his new spec.. in the 2nd pic he is acting cool lar.. down here is his ‘old‘ look without spec.. but my opinion ler, he look more handsome with spec.. i guess a lot of ppl said that edi.. donno these days he can sleep well or not.. wakaka..

Then ler is jennie turn, she ler.. haiz.. donno how to say her la.. got new spec liao don wan to wear.. scare to fall down.. ah fai oso de lar, y u wan to say she doesn’t look good in spec ler.. u see lar, now she don wan wear liao u scold her pulak.. let see jennie’s new look..

actually jennie look quite nice in her new spec, mayb frameless suit her more.. ah fai u shudnt say she look ‘not good’ in every spec lar.. she look like teacher now.. can teach kidnergarden children liao.. hehe..

see, look so much difference..!

i noe fai don mind i write tis blog de, jennie ler.. hmm.. then i donno lor.. juz for memories k?

Clue : u can click on the above pics to ENLARGE them wor..! (Can see clearer mah their new look) hehe.. jahat betul aku ni.. wee chert u oso have to write a blog specially for them ohh..

Again, i don wan to study so that i find something to do.. write blog i mean.. why har..? why i bcome lazier and lazier? yesterday i told myself i have to study, but then ended up by cleaning up my room whole the day, is not that i m so hardworking clean my room, i juz wan to find sth to do instead of study.. 2day, again i tell my self that i must study, i did! i did study.. but nth goes into my brain, i m thinking nonsense all the time.. thinking of wat.. i donno.. i leaf over my book, many pages i have gone through.. but if u ask wan had i studied, i will tell u, PERIODIC TABLE, then u can ask me, wat is inside periodic table, i will tell u, i donno.. i read thru every word.. but i never think about it.. u say, i got study or not..? is this the way to study..?

i always tell myself, final is comin, u have to study, don make the people that love u dissapointed again, u have to get good result to enter the university u wan.. blar blar blar.. a lots!! but wat have i done? NOTHING!! swen told me, study is now or never.. i guess she is right.. u wan to study, is now, or else u will never study..

or maybe i should throw away my laptop, the availability of the wireless connection making me cant study.. maybe i juz blame my unseriousness on it.. or maybe is my problem that i cant control myself.. Who knows? i donno..

Plus, now i m in bad mood now.. i wish i can tell wat happen, but i cant, i donno how to use words to describe wat exactly happen.. is it true that bad mood of ur love one can affect ur mood..? is it true that u will b angry is someone keep annoying u although u have told her u will settle the thing when u meet him/her..? i m not blaming that he/she is so stubborn don wan to hear wat i say.. is that he/she find me at the wrong time.. when i m not in good mood..

i wish i can sleep now.. but i cant, i have to study, but i lazy to study lar.. i feel sorry to myself i never study.. but i really not in the mood to study.. haiz.. why why why why why why why why , why whatever i write i also won feel comfortable..??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wish someone could bring me up to a hill, let me SHOUT… at my loudest VOICE.. or let me CRY, with my SADDEST feeling.. i guess is a wrong decision i write tis blog.. it is making me feel worse and worse….

Less than one month to my final exam.. gonna study hard for that.. i admit tat because of study i miss out a lot of things.. maybe because i grow up in the family that stressing on study.. they tell me that study is everything.. me myself i know the importance of study.. and i know the reason that my family wan us to study so much but not other things else.. i m not from a rich family.. i feel sad when i think about daddy n mummy working so hard.. daddy n mummy wake up at 5.30am everyday.. go out to work after having their breakfast, around 6.30am.. will come back at evening.. settle things on the lorry.. then juz can get to bed at 11pm o 12pm..

feeling so useless tat being a daughter that only noe how to use money but never think about them.. mayb i did.. but i cant do anything.. the only way i can make them happy is showing them i get good result in my exams and tests.. they are not highly-educated.. so i can imagine how the proud of me if i get excellent in my studies.. i also know tat they are a good pair of parents.. they will satisfy all my needs if they are affordable.. but sometime i m such an unfilial daughter tat make some kind of unreasonable request.. making them feel difficult..

my parents r younger, compared to my fren’s parents.. but due to their hard work, earning money for their 4 children, they have lots of ache aorund their body.. sometime they do hurt themselves when working.. such a heartache hearing they say:" i cut myself again..", "i fell down again", "the customer making me difficult again..", "not enough money again.." but wat can i do.. comfort them? ha, how? so i remain silent all the time, watchin them..

now i not in sgt, seldom can see them working except i go bac.. everytime i go bac i will grudge tat the money tat my daddy give me is too little.. no enough for me to spend.. then in shop i always complain that they make me work when i go back.. i hate myself when i think of those things now..

i have a lot of dreams since i was young.. dream to making them enjoy their life after i start to work.. but as i grow up.. i realise that, earning money is not tat easy.. mayb i cant afford to ‘rear‘ myself too..

so now.. i m gonna study hard for my a level.. dad say he is dreaming that i can study overseas but he cant afford tat.. i have to make his dream, and my dream too to bcome real..

study hard, for scholarship.. for future.. for daddy mummy, granddad, grandmom, siblings.. I LOVE MY FAMILY..

i don wan everything oso depend on him.. he has his future too, his dream oso.. but i really hope he can study well, no more playing, no more lazying, hope that he can do this.. then i will b really happy.. we need to support each other, dont we..? love him so much..

After hearing me talking about so much about my AS Trial Exam, now i can tell u my result..

First is my BIOLOGY, worse than last time.. i get C..Very sad.. but wat to do.. i never study.. The remark from bio teacher of ‘Good Work‘ does not comfort me at all.. In Semester 1 exam bio was my strongest subject among the 3 science subject, this time.. The weakest subject.. Maybe i was over confident..? Haha.. donno..(自嘲）

CHEMISTRY.. same as Semester 1 exam, B, but the mark drop.. Haiz.. as i said, the ORGANIC part was making me die..

MATHS show improvement.. A… i always desire of A for maths..

anyway i m happy v my PHYSICS.. jump from B to A.. Good job.. this is because i got do the past year question of physics lar..

THINKING SKILLS.. Haha.. glad that i can get C.. improve ad..

That’s all lor.. My daddy does not satisfy v my result.. soli lar daddy i promise i will do well in my AS Final.. won let u dissapointed again..

P/S to lucas: erm.. i donno the price of FULL HOUSE original CD, coz mine is my bro burn for me one.. u ask my bro to burn for u lar since u r so good v him.. haha..

I guess, quite a time i din post any blog.. Hehe, coz after my last paper of my exam (Mathematics 6) then i straight away ran back to Segamat liao.. Hehe, bringing Jennie(one of my classmate).. Actually not straight away la, juz tat night only lar.. Fortunately ler.. Jennie never 晕车.. soli Jennie.. hehe

Wohooooo…. Holiday 2 weeks lor..

Then we came back to Subang on Monday, y? Because we went to Genting on Tuesday !! We stayed there for 2 days 1 night.. Details? Wait until i get the photos then i will post another blog about my trip to Genting, k?

Then Thursday i went back to Segamat again.. Haiz.. quite boring also lar coz i never go out limteh v my frens, actually was me din find them..

Btw, i finish watching my FULL HOUSE, nice.. haiz.. guys shud not like the main character(male).. Hmm..

Now i m in subang liao.. still one more week to school reopen..

i donno wat to write somemore.. brain is blank.. next time 1st lar..