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就像是昨天

你还是我的一部分

我曾经站得那么高

我曾经是那么的坚强

你的手紧紧环绕着我的腰

所有事都是那么对

不能分开

没有事会是错的

现在我却不能呼吸

不我不能睡

我赤裸裸的被挂着

  · 我又再一次的在这里

     我已被撕成碎片

     不能否认

     也不能再假装下去

     曾经以为你是唯一

     碎了，在深处

     但你不会看见那些眼泪

     在褐色眼镜的后面

我告诉你我的一切

倘开心让你进来

你让我觉得一切都很美好

在我的生命里

现在一切都离我而去了

我只能带着面具活下去

虽在一起，但碎了，在深处

因为我不能在呼吸

不我不能睡

我赤裸裸的被挂着

  · 我又再一次的在这里

     我已被撕成碎片

     不能否认

     也不能再假装下去

     曾经以为你是唯一

     碎了，在深处

     但你不会看见那些眼泪

     在褐色眼镜的后面

把我吞下后又吐出来

恨你，我怪自己

现在看到你就像把我杀死

我不会在外面哭了

再也不会……

   · 我又再一次的在这里

     我已被撕成碎片

     不能否认

     也不能再假装下去

     曾经以为你是唯一

     碎了，在深处

     但你不会看见那些眼泪

     在褐色眼镜的后面

** 是自己从英文歌翻译过来的，觉得很适合自己……

终于，放手了。。

才知道，原来放手可以那么困难，同时又那么简单。。

以前常常很潇洒的说：“它要走就让它走，挽留只是无谓的，勉强是不会有幸福的！” 结果，竟然是自己做出了这种事！尝试挽留那一刻，才体会到原来自己还有那么重要的东西不想失去。。

可是就偏偏那重要的东西始终不是属于我的，它有飞的自由、有寻找自己主人的权利，而我又给不了它要的东西，所以就把它释放了，不想再紧紧绑着他。

以前，不懂得珍惜，常常伤了他人而又不觉得有什么事。这次终于体会到了失去的感觉、晚上难眠的痛苦，也明白了什么是心被撕裂的感觉。

叔说，就当作是成长的经历吧。。对，现在还小、年轻，很多事还需要去学，所以往往跟不上别人的脚步，怕拖累了别人，就离队吧。。

Hmm~~ just reached home, the sky is dark now.. when i was on my way back from library, i saw 3 girls screaming and looking at the floor, then ran away.. i was wondering wat was that.. then i started to see something small was on the floor, 1st i think it was a rat.. But that time Gopi past by there, and nearly STEP on it !! then ler Daniah pulak yang sampai.. It was kitten ohh.. it was a new born kitten.. its mother was not around that time.. erm.. is we cant find its mother..

me, Gopi, Daniah and a unknown guy were trying to find a way to help it cause it seemed goin to die! Finally Gopi decided to take it home, but before that we brought it to the animal clinic.. The veterinary surgeon said it is juz one week old.. he said someone must take good care of this small kitten since it is so young.. the job of course go to Gopi cause me and Daniah staying in hostel.. As the result, Gopi bought a tin of kitten milk.. The main problem is, Gopi’s house got two dogs.. this means he have to take extra care fo the kitten from being the food of the dogs.. hehe.. the kitten has to be fed 8 times a day, each time 2ml of diluted kitten milk..

at there, i learn the way to feed small kitten although i never hold the syringe to feed it, at least i noe the way right? The milk cannot be very concentrated, will dehydrated de, osmosis mah.. and cannot be fed by normal milk, will diarrhoe mah..

we were deciding to give the kitten a name, it is female, but we ended up of nothing..

  erm.. this is the kitten on the veterinary surgeon’s table.. maybe this does not look like a kitten for u… ^.^

** 学习沟通，搂搂抱抱并不是一对情侣唯一能做的事。Learn to communicate, hug is not the only thing a pair of couple can do.

** 没有人是十全十美的。只要你真爱一个人，他的缺点你很容易忽略，甚至不在意。Nobody is perfect, but if u really love somebody, you will ignore or even do not care about his/her defect.

** 要学习珍惜，要找一个你爱又爱你的人不容易。Learn to treasure, it is not easy to find somebody that you love and love you.

** 同样的，不要到了失去了才后悔不珍惜。Similarly, do not regret that u don’t treasure after losing something/somebody you love.

** 谈恋爱的目的是婚姻。The purpose of getting into a relationship is marriage.

** 记住，你每一个小动作或不经意的话都很可能会伤害到你爱你的人。说话做事前请先想一想爱你的人，尤其他也是你爱的人。Remember,  every of your small action you do or words u say may hurt the one you love. Think about him/her before you do or say something.

** 同样，一句关心的话或一个贴心的小动作能温暖一颗心许久，多多关心你爱的人。Similarly, a word or an action of concern can warm a heart for a long time, do take care of the one you love.

** 学习观察，了解并不一定得通过语言。Learn to observe, language is not the only way to understand each other.

** 短讯里的文字要附加感情，太死板的短讯会被误解是你在敷衍。Put some feeling inside the word of sms, don’t let the recipient think that you are just reply because you have to reply.

** 别让你爱的人认为还有别的事是比他更重要的。Don’t let the one you love think that you have other things that are more important than him/her.

** 不是女生太敏感，而是男生不够细心。Not girls too sensitive, is guys never take a hard look onto girls.