今天我才知道，原来我只是你的知心朋友。
是啊，所以我们才那么的谈得来。我一直以为这是我们之间应该有的默契，但你说我是最了解你的朋友。
可能真的是我自作多情，我一直以为你没有变，但我想我错了。五年了，你不可能就那么的没变；或者你想说是两年也好，我真的一直都以为你没有变。
我太高估自己了，所以才会那么的来去自如，我对你造成伤害了对吧？我想留就留，想走就走，从没顾虑到你的感受，如今我真的后悔了，但也太迟了，你在我还没发现时就悄悄离开了，或者应该说，你把我降级到‘知心朋友’。
我没话说了，知心朋友就知心朋友吧。看看四年后的变化吧…
又一句话，重重地敲碎了我的心…
拜托，别再这样了好不好？
事发前，我每晚的梦都是甜蜜的，醒来都会笑。
事发后，连梦都要欺负我，让梦夜夜刺我心，醒了也不得安宁。
所谓日有所思，也有所梦，这道理我当然明白。但现在我只祈求让我每晚好好的睡，不要再折磨我了，好吗？
人们都说，最好的朋友往往都是最劲的敌。[知己知彼嘛] 但我不愿相信。我就是不要承认我自己已跳入一场我想赢但我不要赢的战争。
心底的两把声音也同时的争论着。
第一把声音要我公开心理的战。但我很明白，也许从头到尾就只有我一个人在战，更可悲的是，根本没有人愿意停下脚步施舍地看我一眼，看看我到底为啥而战… 没错，只有我一个人站在沙场上，身穿盔甲手拿盾牌，没有人想要攻击我，只是我傻傻的含着泪准备防守。
另一把声音爱和平地要我退去沙场，因为它知道没有人要与我争锋；更重要的是，它要我不要再挂念留恋沙场的一切一切。沙场给我的伤害已太深太伤，它不忍让那未痊愈的伤口再次扩大、再次地让我生不如死。
为什么呢？难道如果真的引发了战争，我真的就那么失败的连一丝赢的机会都没有吗？
错，爱和平的声音怕的是，两败俱伤…
一颗柠檬的酸，应该能想象得到。
那么，100 或100 或1000000… 颗的柠檬，会是如何呢？
我不想知道的事情，为什么就那么容易的一个举动，我就知道了呢？
我心中的感觉是那么陌生，我怕…我怕，我不要~
我以为我不会这样，但我太低估自己的感情，也太天真了。我简直不能呼吸，简直就是要了我的命~
哈…哈…哈…可悲的我，竟需要强颜欢笑…
It was quite a big news for almost two weeks that south of peninsular malaysia get flooded. I was one of the victims. When i heard the news saying that the number of victims is how much how much, i will think:" oo, i am one of them~!" lolz.
Actually i wanted to post blog since the 1st day of the flood liao, but when i was typing, suddenly a sound ‘xiu~!!’, i found out myself was in the darkness. Wat happen? Yea, blackout~! That time the water outside of my house edi reached my knee. Then suan lo. After a week when the water subsided, i mean no more water in my house, but still other area of johor, I tried to post a blog again, but then when halfway typing also, a sound ‘xiu~!!’, i found myself in darkness again~!! WAT THE..
so, hopefully i successfully upload this blog lar.. won so ‘邪’ gua in nottingham blackout also? haiz.. edi no mood to describe the situation of flood. sien diao, why cut the electricity supply down when i was writing my blog? My bro said, don ever write ur blog again lolz.
got some photos i took during the flood. Many ppl said i siao de, flood liao still got mood to take photos, OF COURSE lar, you are not the victim u donno, so boring ler trap in the house, and this flood is once in a blue (or red yellow green whatever) moon wor. The newspaper also write lar “百年大水灾”. Direct translation? Hundred year big water disaster. Hmm.. hope you are understand lar. This time ler, have to take lots lots lots photos, give grandchildren to see. hehe~
These are all the photos outside my house. My neighbours’ houses and cars. Kesian kami saja~ 
And i can only take their houses and cars photos. Coz water level too high liao~
Aiyaya, this is me. Sitting on the roof. But sit for fun only lar.. If not normal time my dad won let me to open this window to climb to the roof mah~ haha.. at least now i stepped on my house’s roof liao lolz.
This is my living room. For those who came to my house before, then you should know how serious is this flood. Half floor gone ler~! I don dare to go down, but i think my parents, my broters and sister were outside there. I can only stand on the stairs to take this photo.
Ah ha, finally, this is my house, this photo was taken at the 3rd day of flood. Subside quite much liao. This called, come fast go fast lo hehe. OO, gu zhang, i catch u, don smoke~!! My kakak pulak throwing rubbish into the water..
I strongly recommend you to click on this photo to enlarge it. WHy? There is a board there writing :" Biarkan Ia Mengalir Tanpa Halangan." Haha, this board is to remind us to love our sungai. But now no need liao lar.. it was really mengalir tanpa halangan wat..
This one ‘kia si lang’ lar, the water was hitting on the railway track, can u imagine how high was the water?
Oh yea, finally got chance to walk on the railway track above the river liao. Be careful oo..
Half the lorry gone.
The stone below the railway track gone. Substitute by the water liao. Very deras wor.
More photos. As the request of the website, some of my photos are from http://rubeus.org/floods/ . Wan to noe more can go there ler. Alots of good photos inside there. And i apologise for the blur photos, but ler hehe, u can click to enlarge them, no worries. It will be clear.
Wish me good luck in my coming exam oo~ Flood, make me cant really study~!
